Thursday, January 29, 2009

Things I Can't Let Go

I have spent the better part of my day cleaning house. I am only taking a break to blog, because I really need one (plus my blood sugar is really low and I feel as if I am about to pass out). So far, I have cleaned half of the house. Only today, I am choosing to tackle much more than I can handle. I don't know why, but I decided to wash all the sheets, sort baskets and baskets of laundry and rearrange the playroom and the toys in all 3 kids' rooms. Isn't it enough that I am dusting and vacuuming the entire house, and I still have 2 bathrooms to clean (UGH!!!)? Why am I adding more work? I've been wanting to get the kids' top shelves in their closets organized and cleaned too, but I am forcing myself to not do this today. Jason has promised to help me tonight when he gets home after dinner, but I just can't let some things go. Part of me wants to stop and leave the rest for tomorrow, but I can't do that. I can't start and stop. I can't leave jobs undone. I can't let some things go. I like to have a clean house all at one time. For some reason, I decided to do some extra things today and now I can't just let them go. I really wish that I could be like others and not busy myself with this stuff, but my OCD self can't do that. I feel like Martha!

9 comments:

THE MORROW FAMILY said...

I'm the same way, Sunny. I don't "deep clean" my house as much as you, I'm sure. But, once I decide I'm going to do it...I want it ALL done that day! I can't stand having things hanging over my head for the next day. I'm with you.

AUbecca said...

Sunny,
I completely understand. I am not very good at the whole "cleaning as I go" thing so my house tends to get cluttered. When the weekend comes and I finally decide to clean it, watch out! I want to start throwing things away, rearrange shelves, etc. I have even been known to color cordinate the clothes in my closet based on season and clothing type (seriously). Usually about midway through one of those projects I step back and think "What in the world have I just started?" But by then it's too late to stop because I have everything in the closets drug out into the middle of the floor. Plus, by then I already have the vision in my head of how beautiful things will be when they are organized so I just can't quit.

Believe me, I'm with you on the OCD. Sometimes I think I need to join a support group.

Joy said...

My Mama calls that my "all or nothing" personality flaw. I guess a lot of us suffer from it :)

Stefanie said...

My house needs cleaned. So anytime you feel free you can come clean mine. Just kidding! While I would love for my house to always be clean, I think that would require time and energy. Which right now, I can't seem to find. But hopefully, Saturday and Sunday I can get this done. That is my ONLY goal for the weekend!!!

TARA said...

I'm too overwhelmed to know where to start. It's so hard to organize and clean when there are 5 people in the house all day long. I think I've just given up. I hate myself for letting things go, but I'm outnumbered and have simply given up!

The HoneaBees said...

I know what you are going through. I am this way every day with something. That is why I am still up "taking a break to blog" trying to sew some more...at almost midnight!

chesley said...

I know what you mean. I don't clean much anymore, but when I do I have to do it all. Otherwise, I feel like I'm just doing one thing a week and it never really looks or feels clean. I hate that burden that I put on myself. I so wish that I could let it go, but I think it's just a woman thing.

Anonymous said...

I have tried a few of your sister - in laws's recipes. What a great cook she must be. You are lucky to have her in your family. She must be a busy mom, too!!!!!

Anonymous said...

I say enjoy your children and let it go. You have time for that later.